Women over analyze everything!

I almost started another diary, but then I realize that my blog is basically my diary. Today was one of those days where you come to several different realizations. I went to go see the movie The Proposal with one of my very good friends. It was my second time seeing this movie but I lied to her saying that it was my first. Anyways thats not the point, but we were talking today on our way to the movie of tomorrow and how many different possibilities it could bring. I mean even she thought that it was weird that Vick wanted to meet up and talk after I sent him two facebook messages when he didn't respond to those and when we haven't even had any other form of communication for the last month. She said, "What the hell could the a** want?!" I could see she felt my same curiosity. I mean when you ask the Universe to give you a sign of what he could possibly want to talk about and they send you not one love song but two saying how a man wants to profess his love for a girl, thats a little more than a coincidence don't ya think? I mean I can logically make many different reasons why it can't be that, but a part of me wants this to happen. It's weird if I were to picture myself with him 3 months ago I could. But now for some odd reason I cannot. why? I have no idea. Most people just take the sings they're given and work with them and get on with their lives. As for me, I seem to over analyze everything and I mean everything. There's not one thing that I dont over guess or look at over and over again. I mean if he finally tells me that he loves me I will be so incredibly happym but then I think why would he tell me that? Wouldn't he think that it would ruin our friendship? Why would he tell me if he's going all the way to DC for college? Why now? Am I a rebound? Or is it going to be nothing at all to do with love but something completely different? I don't know. I'm confused, anxious, worried, and yet some what excited. My friend told me to go into tomorrow's talk neutral. Which is smart so then I'm not expecting anything. Everything he does though is odd. And as soon as you assume its one thing, he'll tell you its something completely different and that you were wrong. I mean he could be just lying and protecting himself from being completely vulnerable. I can go on explaining and exploring everything that I think could happen tomorrow, but the truth is I have no idea, you have no idea, no one knows. Everything happens for a reason. So what ever happens tomorrow will happen, is there anything I can really do at this point? No. All I have to do is go on with my life right now, do what I am doing now in this moment, and then tomorrow when I see him then I can have these thoughts, but as for now all I can do is be patient and live in the moment.