Miracles, "we need to talk", and decisions.

Well last night was interesting. You know how when you are desperately seeking a miracle and you seem to fold your hands, look up, and just start praying out of desperation? Well I did that exact same thing. I was searching for some sort of sign that Vick actually cared about me. I begged and pleaded that some sort of sense would come into his mind telling him that his friend was in need of help. About 2 minutes later, I got a text. It was him. I was in such a sense of confusion, shock, and happiness. My heart couldn't have been beating any faster otherwise I would probably have a heart attack. he said that we have to meet up this week to talk. Huh? All I said to him before was, how are you.. and I got a "wee need to talk" message. Thank God we aren't together or I would probably be very scared. I mean friends don't really break-up.. or do they? Who knows. I am nervous about this meeting. I mean it could go several different ways. It could either be a friendly conversation of how he's going to miss me, a conversation about how much I seem to complain about my life to him, It could be the I broke up with my girl friend and I'm very upset. I mean soooo many possibilities. I shouldn't have texted him twice in a row just now. You that rule where if you text a guy u have to wait for him to text u back after your response, so its you then him, you then him etc. Well I mean I had to because I have plans and I need to know when he's planning on talking. I have no idea why I just put that in this post. haha. As you can tell, I am a very over-analytical person. But if i wasn't like this then I would definitely not be a woman. And now I await his text. The worst part. For him it could either be 2 min from now, or 2 hours or even 2 days from now. 

You know how when a guy asks for your number and then you wait for forever for him to call you... and you just keep staring at your phone impatiently every 5 seconds. You don't want o turn off your phone either just in case. Well the old me would be obsessive like that. But I guess since I am changing day by day I should just let it go. Let what ever happens, happen. Ripping off the band aid fast instead of super slow. My friends are all telling me not to fall into a trap of feeling bad for him because he's upset, and that I should really open up and let him have it of what he's put me through this week. But agreeing that you'll do it and actually doing it after I've stared into his blue eyes, is two very different things. Lets hope I do the right thing instead of what's easy.